the one where I should be sad


but I'm not. Is that weird?

I think AC (after cancer) I've learned that everything that comes in your life is part of it. LIFE. So you just roll with it. It's been a hard week. A friend has been sick, my girls were gone, and I'm in limbo with the house situation. Are we staying here because it hasn't sold? Will we go back to the country with not internet connection? Will my dog get hit by a tractor because Devin swears she will never come in the house again and puke? All these questions and more are going through my head.

Next week I get to hang out with high school students and talk photography. DREAM JOB! And I was thinking about how my girls are no longer high school students. I have just one more week of our family together in this house and then they all scatter across Texas taking all their clothes and cute shoes with them. WOW. I read blog posts of other mom's getting sad and weepy, facebook status's of countdowns to move-in dates. And I pause and think for a minute how lonely it will be, but I'm not sad. I'm honestly not.

I'm kind of excited and happy for them! College is such a fun age! You get to screw up and make mistakes and you have your entire future ahead of you. You are young, beautiful and energetic. You are full of promise and excitement and ideas! They will call home and tell me all about the world and I will listen and think about how much things have changed. I will pray for them. Hope for them. Wish the world for them.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.